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0615 just a date

all those years ago today date was just a date, then about 1995 all of that changed, bob was born. so i actually dont know  if 6/15 was the real date, it may have been written on her papers, i vaguely remember that, but it was the day i celebrated her birth, and it was near the date, so it counts.  dogs give this gift, the gift of unconditional love.   you feed them you snggle them you scratch them you love them but none of that can compare to the unconditional love they always give back, and that is just what bob gave to me.   bob came to me in a time i desperately needed something to be just mine.  i was so in limbo, in a period of my life where i just had no clue what the hell i was going to do.   i had zero direction, no mentors, wasnt accomplishing much, didnt have any goals, heck, i didnt even know what goal setting was!  i dont regret those years, they were extremely fun, and drunk, but fun, and shaped me along with several more years of that.  looking back on i

the boy, his arm and the guilt.

the boy has been bouncing on the trampoline for years.  since he was a small chubby little guy.   he has always gone out there on his own and would just jump, up and down on his own for the longest time.  it has always been like he goes in a zone, time in his own head, scheming and imagining.  it would calm him, it has always been his go to when he got shooed outside.  well, yesterday was the day that came to an end, snap.  the boy broke his arm.  yes, it was bound to happen yes, trampolines are an accident waiting to happen no, there is not a net around it yes, i am an awful mom so now that we have gotten that out of the way.   it went down like this, the first day of summer break, the boy got shooed outside and off fortnite. jumping away he goes, and attempts the cardinal trampoline sin, a flip.  doesn't land the flip and snap, just like a pencil snapping as he would describe it.     Clean break of both bones in his forearm.  where am i? work. i get a pi