What I do not want to forget...

• the noise the fetal monitor makes
• the feel of the contractions
• the nervous feeling i get when they stick me
• the nervous chatter with the epideral guy
• the happiness when they tell you 'your staying'
• when the water breaks
• the excitement when they set up the 'table'
• the excitement when they set up the baby warmer
• my baby playlist
• my blue sports bra
• the ugly hospital gown
• the cold packs
• how hungry i am and the meal after
• when Todd tells me if it is a girl or boy
• that first cry
• that sweet smell
• holding them close first
• kissing them
• watching the nurse weigh them
• the dead weight of my legs
• push
• don't push
• it is right there
• wow lots of hair
• the cry
• the slime
• the small little feet and hands
• the cord
• the middle of the night in the hospital, I am so tired but cant sleep, just holding them looking at them
• the shower
• the pain when they first nurse
• the contractions that happen still the next day
• not sleeping the last month
• flipping side to side all night trying to get comfy
• waiting for labor to begin
• waiting for my water to break
• walking...walking...walking
• the brothers and sisters meeting her for the first time
• the looks on their faces
• the middle of the nights feedings
• how tired i am in the middle of the night but do not care
• wearing real clothes again
• newborn diapers
• the hospital blanket
• ginger ale
• getting ready to go home
• going home, all those people driving on the road like it is any other day. Don't they know I am bring my new baby home!
• the band aids and tape marks the next day
• the car seat
• the burp clothes
• the pain
• the spider veins
• the veracious veins
• timing everything
• the over powering feeling of love
• the doctor
• thankfulness
• tiny diapers
• how HUGE Jesse looks, I just sit a stare at her at night!