i love the idea of a fresh start, i like monday's, i like a new month and i love a new year.
this year, this week in between christmas and new years i havent had that huge burst i usually have.
i know what i want to do, i know where i want to go, but i havent sat down and created the clean slate i have in years past. that makes me happy. what? why does that make me happy?
because i have failed in years past. yes, this year i have the same goals i have had the past 3-5 years. yes, they change a little and i have made progress in some aspects, but really, i am generally at the same place i was last year, the year before and the year before that.
i have failed.
the big three that i always want to change are exactly.the.same.
that is frustrating.
what is more frustrating, is i can tell you exactly why.
now i do not know if it is i am afraid of failing, afraid of change or afraid of disappointment, probably a good combination of all three. it is just easier to stay exactly where i am, that is just so stinkin easy.
so while i may be screaming make the change to everyone around me, it is time i take my own advice and do the things that are in me, that will upset others but that i know in my heart will be a huge improvement for me. the things that will get me to my big dream/goal, the things that will bring me that peace i am so looking for.
peace in my heart
peace in my head
peace in my home
peace in how i live my life
you often hear people say rest in peace when dealing with death.
i am ready to live in peace, not just in 2018 but beyond.
living in that peace will lead me to my big goal and i am pumped for what that holds.
lets do this,
are you with me?
i am committed to being open and honest on this journey here. that will keep me accountable as to living my life as i want, in peace.